So much to say but I'll save it for another day *gasps in amazement...it rhymes... XD*

Day 5- a song that reminds you of someone.

Day 6- a song that reminds you of somewhere.

Day 7- a song that reminds you of a certain event.

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So much to blog about...so little time.

Or not. Today was average. Food tech. Made bread, ate it, wanted to purge.  Pse... meh. Spanish...meh. Pe, basketball- super-fun, I scored a lot :3. Spoilt by the awkward moment at the end when my teacher asks me why I always wear long sleeves in front of everyone. I ended up muttering something about just getting into the habit. Well, what did she expect me to say...the truth ? O.o "Oh, yeah, I wear it to cover the scars I have from slicing my wrist open and where I wrote Fat all across my arms. K.thanks.Bye." ....

Anyway: Day 4- A song that makes you sad. It had to be this...

Erghhh...I want to cry whenever I hear it because it reminds me of when my ex- almost step Dad left :/ ~

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[Insert mildly amusing title here]

So I'm feeling a lot less...dead..than before. I didn't have time to do anything online really yesterday.
Physics...
RE...found out our result didn't change after remarking so I'm stuck with my B.
Biology...the effects of exercise...yay.
Maths...Trig.
English...more poems.

Went food shopping. Not much fun. Home, did biology homework, watched the Simpsons which was kinda appropriate ( it was the one where Marge kinda adopts Nelson and Lisa want to lose weight (!) and goes to a shop where it says 'purging girls only' on the bathroom.) Then I had dinner which consisted of curly fries and a lump of semi cooked chicken. Yum. Food tech. Homework (with the help of a few people on PT! Thankyou :) ) and History homework.

Today. Supposed to be at school but I'm not. I'm missing Spanish, history, Chemistry and Biology but right now, I couldn't give a shit. I'd better catch up on my song challenge.

Day 2- your least favourite song. Ooo, hard one. It had to be this :

Day 3- a song that makes you happy. I'm not sure any song really makes me happy but seeing as my version of happiness is probably very different to yours:

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If you want to be depressed, why not talk to me for about half an hour ?

Fucked up. I just stood in my room for half an hour on a chair with my light switch string tied around my neck. Contemplating it. Contemplating everything. Contemplating pushing the chair over. I don't know why. I haven't felt too bad recently, I've only cut about once a day, that's good compared to what I normally do. Fuck. I just don't fucking know why. Why do I want to die ? Why do I hate everything ? Why the fuck didn't I do it ? Sorry for contaminating the internet with my useless suicidal ramblings, I don't expect you..whoever you are...to care. Life is fucking pointless. This isn't even living, I'm just here, breathing, waiting for death. I'm nothing. Nothing's fucking real. I just want to die. ~

Today.

...was not too bad :]

-Physics...experiment. I'm not sure what it was about, I don't listen a lot.
-English...poems...****
-PE...
-Maths. Shit.
-Chemistry...meh.

On the plus side I almost made my friend cry by letting her listen to my ipod. It was a joke...I'm not that mean ! I played Asking Alexandria The Final Episode. Heh...

So... The 30 day song challenge Take 2:

Day 1...your favourite song.It changes a lot, it's currently Two door cinema club: Cigarettes in the theatre.

 Awesome band...if you haven't heard any of their songs...then you should... :) ~

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So I haven't been online a lot recently.

...or blogged. I don't know why, I've been pretty antisocial lately...and I have so much to catch up on ! I'll restart my song challenge thing tomorrow :) Wow...I have 7 followers, ahh yay XD Thank you all for following. I'll follow back (if I haven't already :3 )

Today was pretty shit. Saw my mum in ASDA. She was sober (*gasp of amazement*) and just out of hospital...again. Apparently her legs stopped working and she had to have the nose tube thing because she wouldn't eat.

Yesterday I volunteered, only 2 weeks left ! (YAY.) Friday School and town, I bought earrings (I'm re-piercing my ears, I had my lobes done but I'll redo them, another on my left ear and a cartilage. Luckily I don't mind the pain... A checked hoodie from New look <3 Headband, school bag. And.....Two door cinema club CD <3 <3 <3 as well as MCR TBP <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Food. Fuck. I've eaten so much lately. I haven't weighed in for so long because I'm pretty sure when I do I'll want to die...even more than I already do. Tomorrow I'm just going to fucking fast. If not then fuck life :) ~

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Catching up !

Seems like I haven't been online for ages when in reality it's only like 2 days ! So...yesterday was pretty good, DT-made bread, PSE- learnt about the effects of alcohol (as if I actually need to know any more about it with my parents), PE-basketball- fun, scored quite a lot :) After school I had a DofE meeting, first aid so basically bandages and slings. I don't see the point in them, if I cut myself...which I tend to do quite often :/ ...I don't put anything on it, all I want to do is hide it. Anyway, it was pretty funny, we had to do lifts so this boy in my group tried to lift me, so I bit him ... Pretty embarrassing but it would be worse if he broke his back or something :/ He was pretty high at the time anyway so I'm not sure if he can really recall it :L Today I had physics, maths, Spanish, English (which was good because my class applauded the part of my poem I read out ! I'll post it later :) ) and Chemistry. Not much else has happened :/ Gave in my prefect application (yn).

@Lilyzara: Thanks :) I'll post when I find out, hopefully it won't be long ! Good luck with the peer mentor thing ! xxx

Fuck, people annoy me sometimes. I mentioned PICA to my best friend today and explained it and all she had to say was: "Is that what anorexic people have ? ".....no comment.

Later I'll catch up on my 30 day song challenge. ~

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